Confessions

Given myself a moment to think I feel what I am going to put is absolutly neceserry before I move on with my life.

I was regularly fueled by my ego because as a child I lacked any real talent. I admired others but was involved with activities that were not practical at all. I suppose I wanted to be like the kids at school or my best friend at the time. I was not cool at school I had a crush on several girls over a period of several years during high school. Those girls where of a different group, I failed to bring them in because of my different and somewhat odd atittude.

Though I hold no regrets those people where certainly not the group I would have wanted to be apart off. Looking back it kinda makes sense why it never worked out for me when trying to become part of the sheeps.

The point is to this day I feel I have to prove something to make up the somewhat downfalls I may have experianced in the past.

A relationship that often left me confused about my own sense of emotion and future. A confidence issue I experiance all through my adolesence. Trouble fitting in as I had a strange sense of humour. Often finding it difficult to mix with crowds these days unless they are athletic or knowledgeable in some sort of subject of interest.

I allow my ego to push me because I seek a destiny in life. Some what delusional I don't think my ego is all that bad I just feel I become to attached to the future I plant in my head. Pursuing a difficult career involving writing, parkour, gymnastics and martial arts.

Though I enjoy doing it all. Though I am putting aside what I potray as utter BULLSHIT as it has not helped me at all. I believe in myself though can grow anxious at times when trying new things partly due to injuries I sustained in the past. I am putting it aside cause I accept the consequences of my actions.

It is a dangerous sport and way of life but even falling has its benefits. I put aside the fact my former girlfriend does not love me and has long moved on. That does not make me in anyway a failure nor does it mean I have anything to prove to anyone.

I say this now. . .

I have nothing to prove nor offer. I am Daniel Pike and I do what I do simply because I enjoy it. I accept that at times it can be fustrating but no doubt do I realise every part was all and is a learning experiance. What little visions crop up in my head or ego projected thoughts are gone. Fuck em I am not bothered.

I just want to do Parkour and push myself for all the right reasons. . I for one moment don't cast aside the possibility of injury I know I can get hurt but again it is just about the experiance. I can reduce the injury by being confident and training hard and well.

My vision of the future never happened like I though it would it doesnt matter something else happened instead and it was all the more greater. This is my life and I love it. Forget the future, forget the inspiration towards others. Forget this idea of it having any impact.

If all kicks of then cool never doubt the possibility of a prominant future. Nevertheless remain open to whatever.

This is my life, my experiance, my passion. This what it is all about . . So let just see what is in store because I just can't FUCKING wait to get out there and find new things about the world and me . .

Here I live a life without boundries, limitations, no fear or doubt I live a life of freedom, of passion and of inspiration. It was all worth the experiance no doubt