What I want

Well it has been a few weeks mainly due to having no internet, but I must say I have been keeping busy. Keeping fit, healthy and positive. I am moving on from the past I do get into the habbit of allowing it to hold me back which leads me to miss an oppertunity that occurs in the present moment.

This habbit does happen less frequently I know what is holding me back, fortunatly keeping busy helps me move on and so I have progressed at what I enjoy. I also study my personal training on a daily basis which helps with my Parkour development. Anyway I don't want to go on I'll just say what I came on here to say.

I want to move on and put aside the lonliness that has certainly put me down at times. I use it to my advantage but I know I must keep strong and avoid assuming what the future holds should I stand a chance at enjoying any of this. My vision was not the same of anothers which is down to indivdual perspective. Everyone is different in that sense, looking back I know that the feelings I felt were influanced by another but brought on by me, projected by me.

I am easily influanced but as I get older I do become stronger and I do begin to trust people less. I take in what others say with an open mind but I make up my own decision.

Anyway I am off and I will leave on this note. I will focus on my energy and the influances around me on the positives, I will do good things with those oppertunities given to me and pass that on to others.

I know what it feels like to be strong, I also know what it feels like to be weak, happiness and sadness two opposities that follow similar principles however understanding them and yourself is what gives you control. Also its about choice, choosing to fail, choosing to suceed and too do well.