Back to the start

I feel somewhere along the line I may have done something wrong, or just did not see it coming.

My last blog entry was in August that is 7 months ago, the last 7 months have been nothing but a blur. September was the start of college and my gym instructors qualification, I moved home in November to Weymouth and I got a job at a gym in December which I still work for today.

So heres the outcome I am now a qualified gym instructor, I am now sitting a personal training course with all the knowledge freely available to me, I earn £7.50 an hour and average 12 hours a week. My fitness including strength and endurance is through the roof. My parkour and gymnastics is at a much higher level.

Yet I now feel in a position were I am rock bottom. My surrounding friends are slowly drifiting away, my relationship of 13 months came to an end a few weeks ago. I am going to be moving on my own to Poole and then Sydney.

Right now I feel very lost, everything I have wished for I have achieved yet I feel it aint as great as I had expected. I make lots of money which most of I save towards Sydney, my wriitng skills have improved dramaticlly.

Somehow I am lonely I don't know why :/
I didnt think this would happen, I suppose I miss Rebekah, I'm sad I couldn't make it work. I'm sad my friends are drifitng away and those funn times of parkour a few summers back are just memories.

Parkour sticks with me it has grown a large importance in my life, I just can't explain this feeling of lonliness, it is all happening to fast I do kinda miss my life a year ago I dont care that I didnt have as much money or wasnt as strong I was happy and I had company.

I just don't know what is going on right now :/