World if you read this then all the more better but really all those few who seek the knowledge embrace my contribution from my experiance. Yes I have not blogged in a month sadly I have been busy simply living life with no time aside to monitor it but nevermind.
Where can I start, the understanding that things where a paticular way once before, but I know now it was not a permanent state of being. It was silly to think that I knew what was to come next. But I am trying hard and to this day am still learning. First always believe in yourself, success is a state of mind a state of well being. A positive feeling. Your more likely to succeed if you honestly put aside what you persive as a flaw.
I say fuck it no flaws just more room for growth. I wake up knowing I can do great things with myself physically but I know I must remain open to absoultly everything. Have no expectations of the future, carve nothing in stone, simply flow like the river stream.
Walk down the clouded valley and exit in a realm of new beleif and enlightenment. Why not? I say be free, never doubt yourself be free do it.
One last thing my world changes as so do the people around me and those I meet. I may have felt one way that day but not so for this day. The setting sun behind the ocean hills will always say this to me. The dark shining ocean and her beamed eyes and gentle skin hint to me that no matter what downfalls I came across despite my barriers I overcame it and now experianced a moment of happiness I longed for all year.
I love you Nicole. Tu êtes le meilleur et j'adore tu :)
I was lost but I was destined to find myself during that venture I found you before long my eyes became more open to my state of being :)
Thank you everyone for your inspiration :)
l'art du discipline - Parkour
Tuesday, 8 November 2011
Tuesday, 11 October 2011
With the new
So my recent change in life has begun. I have a new girlfriend a new job and my career is growing. I have visited my family in Scotland learned about my ancestors, seeing all these photos of people I will never meet yet contributed to my existance. I am changing myself too, I am happy and content and look forward to what lays ahead. My training has improved I visited london and tested myself round my own area. I have learnt to let go and trust in myself and just don't know what to say.
I found myself in a rut but for now feel I am not in that situation and ready to continue with this journey. I just want to thank everyone in my life for making it all happen :)
Peace x
I found myself in a rut but for now feel I am not in that situation and ready to continue with this journey. I just want to thank everyone in my life for making it all happen :)
Peace x
Saturday, 24 September 2011
20th September 2011
On this paticular date something amazing happened. I woke up in my bed nothing strange there. I felt a similar sensation as I came too. I made my way to Bournemouth and trained with Matt. The session started out what I would have called average. After a few big movements and jumps bigger than previous expectations I was hit with the ultimate obstacle.
The double kong in winton, I had never done before. Previous attempts left me fustarted and scared. I preped it a couple of times but knew the decision was to be made. I turned away Matt set the camera in position. Time stood still looking away I viewed a familiar painted white wall that stood tall. I went through a complete life review. Slightly afraid I admited my mistakes. I put aside my expectations of the future or better yet my future.
"I didn't care anymore." A week prior I chose not to go home which let to me meeting a female I had not come across before. Our friendship spwaned and in time we began seeing each other. Despite my expectations in previous months the ups and downs I realise it was out of my control.
Nothing was easy nor was it safe. But I knew it was what I wanted. I was thinking about the bad things that happened across the world and that my shitty pipe dreams only clouded my view on reality. Looking back on this year I was very fustrated, I was upset and I had to experiance all that to achieve something. I know that there is a bigger destiny awaiting all of us. But right this seconded none of it mattered.
I opened my eyes and there I stood facing the painted white wall, I smiled at the thoughts in my head. Happy at how I ended up at this present moment. I has absoulte trust in myself so I turned to face my destiny. I allowed a little suspense to build but soon I began to run towards the somewhat largish wall. I leaped my hands and feet generating power that lifted me high into the air. Travelling towards the second wall my hands planted, all happened so quick. In a blink of an eye I was on my feet facing away on the opposite side from where I took off.
My eyes more open than ever before, my expectations put aside whatever I was feeling was to last a lifetime. I could only feel the sheer excitment for my existance. No regrets.
The following days would only further prove my growth and understanding in this journey. I could not have ever possibly imagined such a feeling. Despite my mistakes I know it was part of growing up.
The double kong in winton, I had never done before. Previous attempts left me fustarted and scared. I preped it a couple of times but knew the decision was to be made. I turned away Matt set the camera in position. Time stood still looking away I viewed a familiar painted white wall that stood tall. I went through a complete life review. Slightly afraid I admited my mistakes. I put aside my expectations of the future or better yet my future.
"I didn't care anymore." A week prior I chose not to go home which let to me meeting a female I had not come across before. Our friendship spwaned and in time we began seeing each other. Despite my expectations in previous months the ups and downs I realise it was out of my control.
Nothing was easy nor was it safe. But I knew it was what I wanted. I was thinking about the bad things that happened across the world and that my shitty pipe dreams only clouded my view on reality. Looking back on this year I was very fustrated, I was upset and I had to experiance all that to achieve something. I know that there is a bigger destiny awaiting all of us. But right this seconded none of it mattered.
I opened my eyes and there I stood facing the painted white wall, I smiled at the thoughts in my head. Happy at how I ended up at this present moment. I has absoulte trust in myself so I turned to face my destiny. I allowed a little suspense to build but soon I began to run towards the somewhat largish wall. I leaped my hands and feet generating power that lifted me high into the air. Travelling towards the second wall my hands planted, all happened so quick. In a blink of an eye I was on my feet facing away on the opposite side from where I took off.
My eyes more open than ever before, my expectations put aside whatever I was feeling was to last a lifetime. I could only feel the sheer excitment for my existance. No regrets.
The following days would only further prove my growth and understanding in this journey. I could not have ever possibly imagined such a feeling. Despite my mistakes I know it was part of growing up.
Wednesday, 14 September 2011
Damn it !
I just posted a blog and it never saved let me try again, things have been going on shits changing, I'm happy. This year has shown me what it feels like to be happy and to be sad ect.
I feel I am in a good place :)
I know that nothing is set in stone but its ok to have ambitions and dreams.
I feel I am in a good place :)
I know that nothing is set in stone but its ok to have ambitions and dreams.
Sunday, 11 September 2011
The change
I have achieved the things I longed wished over the years. But now I say aim higher aside the ego I wish to pursue something with a deeper meaning. When I wake up tomorrow the journey continues but with a different frame of mind. Because I beleive I am capable of much more, even more than I am doing today.
Wednesday, 7 September 2011
Awakening
I had to post this before it slipped my mind. By far the most important blog entry of my life to date. I read a book by austrailian journilist named John Pilger. The book was given to me by my father. I had read this before back in January, I remember feeling somewhat down and uncomfortable. At the time I feel I was not ready to take in such a harsh reality based on my own lifestyle.
However since January I have matured and decided to pick it up and read it again. My initial reaction was agrreance. Every word made sense. I felt disgusted at myself and every other citizen of the western population. Our ignorance towards our life. I felt almost physically sick when putting into the play the world around me what do I see that displays the truth spoken not just by this man but the others which I am yet to read about.
What was there. . Advertistment everywhere I look, strive for perfection, the pursuit of happiness, ego, media, consumers, retail, money, power, corruption.
I hear from people on a regular basis, dilemmas, unsolveable problems. Forever pursued by shit we don't need, television that is crammed down our throats on bollocks we would all be better of without.
I recall flicking through the tv to watch celebrity big brother. When reading the book "The new rulers of the world" I laughed and cried inside at my wn ignorance by watching such trash. I do however feel better of than most. I do live a somewhat free spirited life, yet I still at times feel driven by my ego. I won't get out of bed unless I feel I have a sole purpose that my ego feels must be achieved.
I say fuck it, tomorrow morning I will get out of bed whatever the weather take a walk into town and sit, look around and observe the world we live in today so I can really appreciate the words absorbed into my mind. I feel reawakended. Reading the words that almost brought me to tears has broke the chains I felt bound towards in life. Suddenly everything feels somewhat lighter, irrelevant. Nothing matters, because the rules do not apply. There is no balance, because there is no logic in any of it.
I will continue on my path with my mind opened ever so more. Blessed by the knowledge of this harsh reality. The illusion seems so apparent, viewed from both sides I can see simuntaneously. I feel no fear because the damage has long been done, the inevitable ways of our life I was born into. Why be afraid this world is no fairy tale now the vale has been lifted.
This is only the beginning of it all, the beginning of an awakening, the beginning of the end of my ego.
However since January I have matured and decided to pick it up and read it again. My initial reaction was agrreance. Every word made sense. I felt disgusted at myself and every other citizen of the western population. Our ignorance towards our life. I felt almost physically sick when putting into the play the world around me what do I see that displays the truth spoken not just by this man but the others which I am yet to read about.
What was there. . Advertistment everywhere I look, strive for perfection, the pursuit of happiness, ego, media, consumers, retail, money, power, corruption.
I hear from people on a regular basis, dilemmas, unsolveable problems. Forever pursued by shit we don't need, television that is crammed down our throats on bollocks we would all be better of without.
I recall flicking through the tv to watch celebrity big brother. When reading the book "The new rulers of the world" I laughed and cried inside at my wn ignorance by watching such trash. I do however feel better of than most. I do live a somewhat free spirited life, yet I still at times feel driven by my ego. I won't get out of bed unless I feel I have a sole purpose that my ego feels must be achieved.
I say fuck it, tomorrow morning I will get out of bed whatever the weather take a walk into town and sit, look around and observe the world we live in today so I can really appreciate the words absorbed into my mind. I feel reawakended. Reading the words that almost brought me to tears has broke the chains I felt bound towards in life. Suddenly everything feels somewhat lighter, irrelevant. Nothing matters, because the rules do not apply. There is no balance, because there is no logic in any of it.
I will continue on my path with my mind opened ever so more. Blessed by the knowledge of this harsh reality. The illusion seems so apparent, viewed from both sides I can see simuntaneously. I feel no fear because the damage has long been done, the inevitable ways of our life I was born into. Why be afraid this world is no fairy tale now the vale has been lifted.
This is only the beginning of it all, the beginning of an awakening, the beginning of the end of my ego.
Tuesday, 30 August 2011
Inspiring movements
I was watching a video of daniel ilabaca, were he was round his own area experimenting with all kinds of movements. It was great to watch cause it only further proves that anything is possible with this. You can do all kinds of movements in different areas.
That was all I had to say really. My wrist is healing and have been finding new routes and movements at the postland school :)
That was all I had to say really. My wrist is healing and have been finding new routes and movements at the postland school :)
Friday, 26 August 2011
Letting go
I slowly with time have let go. Accepted this life and come to the idea it was and is, has always been an experiance. Being happy, living this life, having no doubts, exploring the different realms. Growing up becoming something, being someone. Being alive.
This time last year I posted a blog titled "Thats life" The entry was a praise of all my recent achievements, my success and the stuff I had learned and experianced. I posted nothing after that until March. Then I posted my recent events and downfall. My recent breakup, my sense of lonliness and confussion. Though again I post a blog now to say I picked myself up and made something or it all despite the emotional ups and downs.
I leave with this last say hopefully in March I am in a good stat of mind.
"This is the oppertunity to be anything you wanna be, it's never too late. Look around and see all is a blessing become the very thing you wish to be. Grow with time, be patient and vigilant but be happy along the way. My work is about making a believer out of the unsuspecting. To become soimething, to use my potential, to have freedom.
To experiance such feelings and to look back with a smile to say it was an experiance worth having. An experiance worth living.
This time last year I posted a blog titled "Thats life" The entry was a praise of all my recent achievements, my success and the stuff I had learned and experianced. I posted nothing after that until March. Then I posted my recent events and downfall. My recent breakup, my sense of lonliness and confussion. Though again I post a blog now to say I picked myself up and made something or it all despite the emotional ups and downs.
I leave with this last say hopefully in March I am in a good stat of mind.
"This is the oppertunity to be anything you wanna be, it's never too late. Look around and see all is a blessing become the very thing you wish to be. Grow with time, be patient and vigilant but be happy along the way. My work is about making a believer out of the unsuspecting. To become soimething, to use my potential, to have freedom.
To experiance such feelings and to look back with a smile to say it was an experiance worth having. An experiance worth living.
Sunday, 24 July 2011
Confessions
Given myself a moment to think I feel what I am going to put is absolutly neceserry before I move on with my life.
I was regularly fueled by my ego because as a child I lacked any real talent. I admired others but was involved with activities that were not practical at all. I suppose I wanted to be like the kids at school or my best friend at the time. I was not cool at school I had a crush on several girls over a period of several years during high school. Those girls where of a different group, I failed to bring them in because of my different and somewhat odd atittude.
Though I hold no regrets those people where certainly not the group I would have wanted to be apart off. Looking back it kinda makes sense why it never worked out for me when trying to become part of the sheeps.
The point is to this day I feel I have to prove something to make up the somewhat downfalls I may have experianced in the past.
A relationship that often left me confused about my own sense of emotion and future. A confidence issue I experiance all through my adolesence. Trouble fitting in as I had a strange sense of humour. Often finding it difficult to mix with crowds these days unless they are athletic or knowledgeable in some sort of subject of interest.
I allow my ego to push me because I seek a destiny in life. Some what delusional I don't think my ego is all that bad I just feel I become to attached to the future I plant in my head. Pursuing a difficult career involving writing, parkour, gymnastics and martial arts.
Though I enjoy doing it all. Though I am putting aside what I potray as utter BULLSHIT as it has not helped me at all. I believe in myself though can grow anxious at times when trying new things partly due to injuries I sustained in the past. I am putting it aside cause I accept the consequences of my actions.
It is a dangerous sport and way of life but even falling has its benefits. I put aside the fact my former girlfriend does not love me and has long moved on. That does not make me in anyway a failure nor does it mean I have anything to prove to anyone.
I say this now. . .
I have nothing to prove nor offer. I am Daniel Pike and I do what I do simply because I enjoy it. I accept that at times it can be fustrating but no doubt do I realise every part was all and is a learning experiance. What little visions crop up in my head or ego projected thoughts are gone. Fuck em I am not bothered.
I just want to do Parkour and push myself for all the right reasons. . I for one moment don't cast aside the possibility of injury I know I can get hurt but again it is just about the experiance. I can reduce the injury by being confident and training hard and well.
My vision of the future never happened like I though it would it doesnt matter something else happened instead and it was all the more greater. This is my life and I love it. Forget the future, forget the inspiration towards others. Forget this idea of it having any impact.
If all kicks of then cool never doubt the possibility of a prominant future. Nevertheless remain open to whatever.
This is my life, my experiance, my passion. This what it is all about . . So let just see what is in store because I just can't FUCKING wait to get out there and find new things about the world and me . .
Here I live a life without boundries, limitations, no fear or doubt I live a life of freedom, of passion and of inspiration. It was all worth the experiance no doubt
I was regularly fueled by my ego because as a child I lacked any real talent. I admired others but was involved with activities that were not practical at all. I suppose I wanted to be like the kids at school or my best friend at the time. I was not cool at school I had a crush on several girls over a period of several years during high school. Those girls where of a different group, I failed to bring them in because of my different and somewhat odd atittude.
Though I hold no regrets those people where certainly not the group I would have wanted to be apart off. Looking back it kinda makes sense why it never worked out for me when trying to become part of the sheeps.
The point is to this day I feel I have to prove something to make up the somewhat downfalls I may have experianced in the past.
A relationship that often left me confused about my own sense of emotion and future. A confidence issue I experiance all through my adolesence. Trouble fitting in as I had a strange sense of humour. Often finding it difficult to mix with crowds these days unless they are athletic or knowledgeable in some sort of subject of interest.
I allow my ego to push me because I seek a destiny in life. Some what delusional I don't think my ego is all that bad I just feel I become to attached to the future I plant in my head. Pursuing a difficult career involving writing, parkour, gymnastics and martial arts.
Though I enjoy doing it all. Though I am putting aside what I potray as utter BULLSHIT as it has not helped me at all. I believe in myself though can grow anxious at times when trying new things partly due to injuries I sustained in the past. I am putting it aside cause I accept the consequences of my actions.
It is a dangerous sport and way of life but even falling has its benefits. I put aside the fact my former girlfriend does not love me and has long moved on. That does not make me in anyway a failure nor does it mean I have anything to prove to anyone.
I say this now. . .
I have nothing to prove nor offer. I am Daniel Pike and I do what I do simply because I enjoy it. I accept that at times it can be fustrating but no doubt do I realise every part was all and is a learning experiance. What little visions crop up in my head or ego projected thoughts are gone. Fuck em I am not bothered.
I just want to do Parkour and push myself for all the right reasons. . I for one moment don't cast aside the possibility of injury I know I can get hurt but again it is just about the experiance. I can reduce the injury by being confident and training hard and well.
My vision of the future never happened like I though it would it doesnt matter something else happened instead and it was all the more greater. This is my life and I love it. Forget the future, forget the inspiration towards others. Forget this idea of it having any impact.
If all kicks of then cool never doubt the possibility of a prominant future. Nevertheless remain open to whatever.
This is my life, my experiance, my passion. This what it is all about . . So let just see what is in store because I just can't FUCKING wait to get out there and find new things about the world and me . .
Here I live a life without boundries, limitations, no fear or doubt I live a life of freedom, of passion and of inspiration. It was all worth the experiance no doubt
Wednesday, 13 July 2011
Tired
I'm sick and tired with the finding logic in everything approach. I try and do things by the book so I do a good job of it. Annoyed at myself for over analysing everything. Tired of trying to make sense of it all or be the best.
I say fuck it, I choose not to make sense of anything anymore ans just see what comes of it. I choose not to do something with a set expectation.
I just don't wanna be held back I think anything is possible and I am my own key to my success. It is not all that complicated so I do not see why I should discuss this further when I know as of now what I have to do. .
I say fuck it, I choose not to make sense of anything anymore ans just see what comes of it. I choose not to do something with a set expectation.
I just don't wanna be held back I think anything is possible and I am my own key to my success. It is not all that complicated so I do not see why I should discuss this further when I know as of now what I have to do. .
Monday, 4 July 2011
Hidden potential
I am certain we all have an inner strength. A person within us that is stronger than we could ever imagine. Confidence far beyond what I could imagine.
I look myself in the mirror and I see deep within my pupils this paticular strength look to me. He is dettached and has a main focus. He aspires to do great things. There are no limits for this person, there is not a great deal of emotion or thought required.
No doubts, no dwelling or any concept of ego. This person I see when I look in the mirror and 40% of my waking day do I become this person. The more spontaneous I act the more of the person I become.
I feel I have less to say and little to dwell upon. At ease and open minded I feel reassured at my state of being. I understand my talent and strength but no it is not everything and it is not to be misused. It is to purse my every growing path of curisoisty not for egotistic matters.
So I guess I say to myself I am ready to become this person I have felt myself grow into. Ready to step into the realm of this mysterious dimension. Away from the previous life I feel myself change.
This was all a choice and it is what I want. I feel I am ready . .
I look myself in the mirror and I see deep within my pupils this paticular strength look to me. He is dettached and has a main focus. He aspires to do great things. There are no limits for this person, there is not a great deal of emotion or thought required.
No doubts, no dwelling or any concept of ego. This person I see when I look in the mirror and 40% of my waking day do I become this person. The more spontaneous I act the more of the person I become.
I feel I have less to say and little to dwell upon. At ease and open minded I feel reassured at my state of being. I understand my talent and strength but no it is not everything and it is not to be misused. It is to purse my every growing path of curisoisty not for egotistic matters.
So I guess I say to myself I am ready to become this person I have felt myself grow into. Ready to step into the realm of this mysterious dimension. Away from the previous life I feel myself change.
This was all a choice and it is what I want. I feel I am ready . .
Saturday, 2 July 2011
What next
After months of training and jumping about I decided today about 3 hours ago that I will push myself to the absolute limit. I wanna know what I can achieve from all this I accept the possible dangers and injuries that I may expriance but it don't matter to me I just wanna know how far I can go.
I wanna do well it is my dream. .
I know what I want :)
I wanna do well it is my dream. .
I know what I want :)
Tuesday, 21 June 2011
There is no place like home
This day 3 years ago I moved to Weymouth. I can look at all the things I have achieved I have also finished college forever. So it is nice to see that 3 years ago I was embarking on an adventure on what today is now the next part of my life. Looking back to each year makes me realise nothing should be taken to seriously. Serious as in should not be treated as a permanent fixation of time . Everything changes and the hassle I may have put myself through has been forgotten I only remember the good. So may as well just focus on the good cause its all I will remember.
I look back to see I tried to hard only to think I should of just let it be it was fine that way :). It also snaps me out of my life last year which was when I was with Rebekah for 1 whole year. Looking back makes me realise that it was only a small part of my life things where happening way before that paticular year.
Anyway this place is my home at the minute I promise to take things easier and enjoy it the setting around me. Laugh lots and be amused at the things of life. A new stage in my life has began doors have opened :) :)
I look back to see I tried to hard only to think I should of just let it be it was fine that way :). It also snaps me out of my life last year which was when I was with Rebekah for 1 whole year. Looking back makes me realise that it was only a small part of my life things where happening way before that paticular year.
Anyway this place is my home at the minute I promise to take things easier and enjoy it the setting around me. Laugh lots and be amused at the things of life. A new stage in my life has began doors have opened :) :)
Saturday, 11 June 2011
I am listening
Recent events have inspired this blog entry. Overcomig the past for good and understanding my place in all of this. I mentioned before about my spirit guide that protects me and points me in the right directions. It tells me when to hold a second long and when to leave not one second to late. I am here to say after all ups and downs and mishaps I am listening.
I had a recent encounter with rebekah which I attempted to get her back only to see she does not love me anymore which I suppose I kinda already knew. Why do I still have feelings for her? Well I guess I was strongly influanced by the experiance and miss the fact I do not experiance that now though keeping other things in mind. I can only look back so much but will not help me in anyway achieve what I want. Something I set myself long before any of this so I could say its pointless to get wrapped up in something else.
This experiance has not been the most enjoyable though I feel is neccesarry for me to grow. As my dad once said it is better to have loved than to have not loved at all. I made a wish to experiance something beauitful and I did but however it had ran its course and we were both being side tracked from our own goals in life. To which has lead to this.
Knowing that as I go through life I will no doubt meet other woman but I have begin to consider something. Meeting woman should feel as natrual as anything in life like writing poetry or making the bed. Or for me like doing a kong vault. It has a sequence and follows a pattern. You know the way and how it is done you know what you must do and not do. It feels natrual. If any of those things do not feel natural then something is wrong.
I will meet other woman one day and the connection and chemistry no doubt will click natrually because I see myself as a likeminded guy who does not try to hard and is laid back. A scenario that took place tonight I will explain.
I was out with my friends and in the clubs I would think of meeting woman maybe getting to socialise. I bump into a group of girls some I know some I don't know. I tagged along and as the night progressed I could feel myself being surrounded by people who I do not normally converse with. Tention began to build and even close encounters which lead to me walking away. Fear of fighting I chose the option to walk for me I have no regrets. I was unharmed and I was nothing more than victim of wrong place wrong time and I was being challeneged by others.
After all that I went home sober as I do not drink and I stood by the sea. I just gave up on all this bullshit and decided that this has become silly now. I am pursuing something which has little or no awards for me. I have very little positive to gain from chasing these types of people. I have something good going for myself Parkour, Gymnastics, Writing, Personal Training. Those are the things I enjoy and also seeing friends but my friends I relate to that is my older friends.
So I am here to say that I am listening I am putting it all aside as I know it will only hold me back. Yes the future will come and all this will be a memory in which I will pick and choose what I remember. I love the life here and everything around it I don't accosiate with the people I came across today and I know to becareful.
I will stick by this phrase.
"If you cannot be without it, then you cannot be with it."
Moving on with another female for the sake of it will not do me justice I know that. As for Rebekah I just need to remind myself that the relationship was not perfect though I got to experiance alot. We were both fortunate and we got alot of positive from it. I have taken in what life skills come for the mistakes I will avoid making in the next relationship. Not that I made any major mistakes but I tripped up a few times. I know that I accept that and take it with a smile cause I did a good job of it all and so did she. We made each other happy but me well I just had to make a choice which contained more than I bargined for. The next one that comes along I will cherish every moment and love them very much.
But till then I have other things to be focused on and I will give it my best :) I will look back from time to time and smile as each yeah has been a blessing I am fourtune to have experianced it all. But I will avoid the ego desired goals that will only lead to downfall and trouble.
I'll stop going on now as I think I get the point. Life is all about learning, nothing stays the same so it is important that we make the most of now and embrace it Something I am determined to do :).
I had a recent encounter with rebekah which I attempted to get her back only to see she does not love me anymore which I suppose I kinda already knew. Why do I still have feelings for her? Well I guess I was strongly influanced by the experiance and miss the fact I do not experiance that now though keeping other things in mind. I can only look back so much but will not help me in anyway achieve what I want. Something I set myself long before any of this so I could say its pointless to get wrapped up in something else.
This experiance has not been the most enjoyable though I feel is neccesarry for me to grow. As my dad once said it is better to have loved than to have not loved at all. I made a wish to experiance something beauitful and I did but however it had ran its course and we were both being side tracked from our own goals in life. To which has lead to this.
Knowing that as I go through life I will no doubt meet other woman but I have begin to consider something. Meeting woman should feel as natrual as anything in life like writing poetry or making the bed. Or for me like doing a kong vault. It has a sequence and follows a pattern. You know the way and how it is done you know what you must do and not do. It feels natrual. If any of those things do not feel natural then something is wrong.
I will meet other woman one day and the connection and chemistry no doubt will click natrually because I see myself as a likeminded guy who does not try to hard and is laid back. A scenario that took place tonight I will explain.
I was out with my friends and in the clubs I would think of meeting woman maybe getting to socialise. I bump into a group of girls some I know some I don't know. I tagged along and as the night progressed I could feel myself being surrounded by people who I do not normally converse with. Tention began to build and even close encounters which lead to me walking away. Fear of fighting I chose the option to walk for me I have no regrets. I was unharmed and I was nothing more than victim of wrong place wrong time and I was being challeneged by others.
After all that I went home sober as I do not drink and I stood by the sea. I just gave up on all this bullshit and decided that this has become silly now. I am pursuing something which has little or no awards for me. I have very little positive to gain from chasing these types of people. I have something good going for myself Parkour, Gymnastics, Writing, Personal Training. Those are the things I enjoy and also seeing friends but my friends I relate to that is my older friends.
So I am here to say that I am listening I am putting it all aside as I know it will only hold me back. Yes the future will come and all this will be a memory in which I will pick and choose what I remember. I love the life here and everything around it I don't accosiate with the people I came across today and I know to becareful.
I will stick by this phrase.
"If you cannot be without it, then you cannot be with it."
Moving on with another female for the sake of it will not do me justice I know that. As for Rebekah I just need to remind myself that the relationship was not perfect though I got to experiance alot. We were both fortunate and we got alot of positive from it. I have taken in what life skills come for the mistakes I will avoid making in the next relationship. Not that I made any major mistakes but I tripped up a few times. I know that I accept that and take it with a smile cause I did a good job of it all and so did she. We made each other happy but me well I just had to make a choice which contained more than I bargined for. The next one that comes along I will cherish every moment and love them very much.
But till then I have other things to be focused on and I will give it my best :) I will look back from time to time and smile as each yeah has been a blessing I am fourtune to have experianced it all. But I will avoid the ego desired goals that will only lead to downfall and trouble.
I'll stop going on now as I think I get the point. Life is all about learning, nothing stays the same so it is important that we make the most of now and embrace it Something I am determined to do :).
Thursday, 19 May 2011
My final say in all this
I had to say this before it left my mind. The last few nights have been different, similar training and progress. Better flexibility in the hips higher kicks. Sad in some form I do have the tendancy to look back, as strong as I have become it still creeps upon me.
I do miss her I won't deny it yet I try everything to stay strong. I miss holding her and I miss the compaionship of another human being. A pure connection. Yet I am thinking something else. My inner guide or drive within me telling me to pursue something different. This absense is a learning curve and has certainly taught me well. If I could get it all back it would show that I have learnt nothing at all and there is no chance I can achieve anything.
It is a sad reality when I look at it like that but yet feels neceserry. To have the will to continue on my passion in the upmost confidence gives me inspiration to continue on with all this. The truth being I just couldn't have continued on my path with her in my life. I had to let go and move on to what I wanted. I'm slowly learning that now and I am trying to come to terms with that.
So I can say as many farewells as I like I don't feel the impact she had on me will ever escape me for it was one influance I will never forget. I will move on though and I will be strong because it is what I want.
Living backwards will only hold me back. Admiring the present and aiming towards the unknown certainly has its awards.
I am curious to know how far I can take all this and see how far I am willing to push myself.
I just need to repeat this to myself to help move on.
"Looking backwards will not help you move forward, you know yourself to make the right choices embrace the experiance and take the good things with you into the future"
I do miss her I won't deny it yet I try everything to stay strong. I miss holding her and I miss the compaionship of another human being. A pure connection. Yet I am thinking something else. My inner guide or drive within me telling me to pursue something different. This absense is a learning curve and has certainly taught me well. If I could get it all back it would show that I have learnt nothing at all and there is no chance I can achieve anything.
It is a sad reality when I look at it like that but yet feels neceserry. To have the will to continue on my passion in the upmost confidence gives me inspiration to continue on with all this. The truth being I just couldn't have continued on my path with her in my life. I had to let go and move on to what I wanted. I'm slowly learning that now and I am trying to come to terms with that.
So I can say as many farewells as I like I don't feel the impact she had on me will ever escape me for it was one influance I will never forget. I will move on though and I will be strong because it is what I want.
Living backwards will only hold me back. Admiring the present and aiming towards the unknown certainly has its awards.
I am curious to know how far I can take all this and see how far I am willing to push myself.
I just need to repeat this to myself to help move on.
"Looking backwards will not help you move forward, you know yourself to make the right choices embrace the experiance and take the good things with you into the future"
Friday, 6 May 2011
The start of it all
Before I start I went through the blog and peaked at all my entires from way back where talking 2009. It is interesting to see how I tried to progress my training and interesting to see how I have adapted and gained knowledge in ways I did not feel aware of. Looking back you can see I had little knowledge in anything such as adaptation or knowledge on the human body.
I don't wanna come across as harsh the only way I gained knowledge of the human body was to pay £600 on a 3 month saturday course in gym instructing I then worked at a gym who then put me through a level 3 qualification which can cost around £4000. So that is why my understanding of my training is where it stands today. I do enjoy looking back to see what kind of person I was and to see now the person I have grown into gradually yeah it's been 2 years and I can see alot has changed. I will comment on how amusing it is that my training back then consisted of stupid amounts of reps and sets of squats calf raises and press ups. With my knowledge now I snigger knowing that all I achieved was local muscular endurance, however my Parkour training did help me progress strength wise ect.
Anyway yeah shit has changed since then and only by reading through the blogs reading my own words did I truely understand. It can happen so quickly that you get little time to look around and really take any notice. Yes I have grown up a great deal in 2 years very much so.
I am proud of my efforts and pat myself on the back for dragging myself to this point for I am yet to talk about what I wanted to say in the first place.
Firstly that Parkour session from the last entry it went well and I nailed that kong precision well I bounced off but that shows progress ha . .
But . . what I wanted to say was last night I went to poole gymnastics I have had a week or so absense not that I don't do this stuff outside on the grass cause I do :|
So it is not like I'm missing out trading the sprung floor for grass is good for progress. So yeah I was on the train and went through various stages of coming to terms with the little things that got on my nerves because frankly there were a few things I know have been keeping me back. In a nutshell my problem was my ego, the one thing that has put in akward positions before. It leads to insecurity and I know lots of people have it but not something I wish to have not in this life with this profession.
So I walk off the train to the gym and when I say walked I mean not jogged with music blasting in my ears pumping up my ego for the session ahead. I walked and I focused on the now because I was feeling uneasy at how time seems to be accelerating all of a sudden. Anyway I focuses on the moment and put aside the past or the future and said something to myself that I have never said before.
"It doesn't matter what the future holds even if I ain't doing this stuff cause I know I'm in the right mind set to do whats best for me."
There and then I was hit with a reality that I have been holding back on myself, after all the poinent moments I have experiance in my life why would I to this day hold myself back in doubt?
So it kinda really kicked of at gymnastics where I am faced with long mirrors where I used to look at myself and think something negative of myself, well that session I didn't and when I tried something I just let go and trusted in myself to do a good job of it. What I achieved that night was nothing short of a revolution on my part I pushed myself and did things beyond my normal ability.
Even the next day (Today) I was different trusting in myself I knew something had changed I knew it linked back to the moment where I made a silent pray to my guide and asked to let go so I could become the person I have longed to be, so I did I let go and fell into the realm of the unknown. The trasnformation never ends and looking back just now have I noticed how almighty the change has been. I am not the person I was 2 years ago yet I act like I have been this person my whole life :P
So I finish on this I feel I was harsh on myself in the past I know it as a fact now I try what I can to not be negative towards myself or others, be happy, strong and put on a front so I can give others strength and confidence. For I am a person that I wanted to be someone I knew I liked cause I do like who I am sometimes you need to look back to remind yourself what it has taken to become that person. I will continue on from the progress I made yesterday :).
Trust thy self . .
I don't wanna come across as harsh the only way I gained knowledge of the human body was to pay £600 on a 3 month saturday course in gym instructing I then worked at a gym who then put me through a level 3 qualification which can cost around £4000. So that is why my understanding of my training is where it stands today. I do enjoy looking back to see what kind of person I was and to see now the person I have grown into gradually yeah it's been 2 years and I can see alot has changed. I will comment on how amusing it is that my training back then consisted of stupid amounts of reps and sets of squats calf raises and press ups. With my knowledge now I snigger knowing that all I achieved was local muscular endurance, however my Parkour training did help me progress strength wise ect.
Anyway yeah shit has changed since then and only by reading through the blogs reading my own words did I truely understand. It can happen so quickly that you get little time to look around and really take any notice. Yes I have grown up a great deal in 2 years very much so.
I am proud of my efforts and pat myself on the back for dragging myself to this point for I am yet to talk about what I wanted to say in the first place.
Firstly that Parkour session from the last entry it went well and I nailed that kong precision well I bounced off but that shows progress ha . .
But . . what I wanted to say was last night I went to poole gymnastics I have had a week or so absense not that I don't do this stuff outside on the grass cause I do :|
So it is not like I'm missing out trading the sprung floor for grass is good for progress. So yeah I was on the train and went through various stages of coming to terms with the little things that got on my nerves because frankly there were a few things I know have been keeping me back. In a nutshell my problem was my ego, the one thing that has put in akward positions before. It leads to insecurity and I know lots of people have it but not something I wish to have not in this life with this profession.
So I walk off the train to the gym and when I say walked I mean not jogged with music blasting in my ears pumping up my ego for the session ahead. I walked and I focused on the now because I was feeling uneasy at how time seems to be accelerating all of a sudden. Anyway I focuses on the moment and put aside the past or the future and said something to myself that I have never said before.
"It doesn't matter what the future holds even if I ain't doing this stuff cause I know I'm in the right mind set to do whats best for me."
There and then I was hit with a reality that I have been holding back on myself, after all the poinent moments I have experiance in my life why would I to this day hold myself back in doubt?
So it kinda really kicked of at gymnastics where I am faced with long mirrors where I used to look at myself and think something negative of myself, well that session I didn't and when I tried something I just let go and trusted in myself to do a good job of it. What I achieved that night was nothing short of a revolution on my part I pushed myself and did things beyond my normal ability.
Even the next day (Today) I was different trusting in myself I knew something had changed I knew it linked back to the moment where I made a silent pray to my guide and asked to let go so I could become the person I have longed to be, so I did I let go and fell into the realm of the unknown. The trasnformation never ends and looking back just now have I noticed how almighty the change has been. I am not the person I was 2 years ago yet I act like I have been this person my whole life :P
So I finish on this I feel I was harsh on myself in the past I know it as a fact now I try what I can to not be negative towards myself or others, be happy, strong and put on a front so I can give others strength and confidence. For I am a person that I wanted to be someone I knew I liked cause I do like who I am sometimes you need to look back to remind yourself what it has taken to become that person. I will continue on from the progress I made yesterday :).
Trust thy self . .
Tuesday, 3 May 2011
Idols
I do have many idols that I follow some I look up at and admire and hope to one day be as talented as them. So I do what I can to focus and try my best and I have felt myself progress as so did my idols.
It goes to show with enough effort and just basically wanting it and knowing how to get it is what helps achieve it. To be realistic is important but to put aside all logic and do the impossible is another, baring both in mind I think all the effort pays off.
I have things I want to do with my life and many of them I have tried at and have in some way thought I made a good effort, it is part of my growing and development. Without sounding egotstic I have recently noticed that I can easily catch the attention of passers by with what I do. However I have come to realise that all of that means very little, yes I enjoy the support but my own support is the most important.
Well Parkour training tonight got a few things I wanna try and get see if the effort pays off tonight ;) ha anyway gotta run . .
It goes to show with enough effort and just basically wanting it and knowing how to get it is what helps achieve it. To be realistic is important but to put aside all logic and do the impossible is another, baring both in mind I think all the effort pays off.
I have things I want to do with my life and many of them I have tried at and have in some way thought I made a good effort, it is part of my growing and development. Without sounding egotstic I have recently noticed that I can easily catch the attention of passers by with what I do. However I have come to realise that all of that means very little, yes I enjoy the support but my own support is the most important.
Well Parkour training tonight got a few things I wanna try and get see if the effort pays off tonight ;) ha anyway gotta run . .
Saturday, 30 April 2011
What I want
Well it has been a few weeks mainly due to having no internet, but I must say I have been keeping busy. Keeping fit, healthy and positive. I am moving on from the past I do get into the habbit of allowing it to hold me back which leads me to miss an oppertunity that occurs in the present moment.
This habbit does happen less frequently I know what is holding me back, fortunatly keeping busy helps me move on and so I have progressed at what I enjoy. I also study my personal training on a daily basis which helps with my Parkour development. Anyway I don't want to go on I'll just say what I came on here to say.
I want to move on and put aside the lonliness that has certainly put me down at times. I use it to my advantage but I know I must keep strong and avoid assuming what the future holds should I stand a chance at enjoying any of this. My vision was not the same of anothers which is down to indivdual perspective. Everyone is different in that sense, looking back I know that the feelings I felt were influanced by another but brought on by me, projected by me.
I am easily influanced but as I get older I do become stronger and I do begin to trust people less. I take in what others say with an open mind but I make up my own decision.
Anyway I am off and I will leave on this note. I will focus on my energy and the influances around me on the positives, I will do good things with those oppertunities given to me and pass that on to others.
I know what it feels like to be strong, I also know what it feels like to be weak, happiness and sadness two opposities that follow similar principles however understanding them and yourself is what gives you control. Also its about choice, choosing to fail, choosing to suceed and too do well.
This habbit does happen less frequently I know what is holding me back, fortunatly keeping busy helps me move on and so I have progressed at what I enjoy. I also study my personal training on a daily basis which helps with my Parkour development. Anyway I don't want to go on I'll just say what I came on here to say.
I want to move on and put aside the lonliness that has certainly put me down at times. I use it to my advantage but I know I must keep strong and avoid assuming what the future holds should I stand a chance at enjoying any of this. My vision was not the same of anothers which is down to indivdual perspective. Everyone is different in that sense, looking back I know that the feelings I felt were influanced by another but brought on by me, projected by me.
I am easily influanced but as I get older I do become stronger and I do begin to trust people less. I take in what others say with an open mind but I make up my own decision.
Anyway I am off and I will leave on this note. I will focus on my energy and the influances around me on the positives, I will do good things with those oppertunities given to me and pass that on to others.
I know what it feels like to be strong, I also know what it feels like to be weak, happiness and sadness two opposities that follow similar principles however understanding them and yourself is what gives you control. Also its about choice, choosing to fail, choosing to suceed and too do well.
Tuesday, 12 April 2011
Time
I been out training loads, crazy how things change, I look back on the past I suppose its about the experiance, remembering certain things.
Reminsing is a good thing cause it is important to remember the person I once was and what events lead me into the person today. I was training round town tonight it was good and I went round spots that I see all the time I suppose I went to places I took my ex girlfriend when I first met her and showed her my parkour.
I thought how crazy it was how this all happened over 1 year ago and how quick time goes. It is important to value every moment and go with it I said to myself that times you maybe down but others you are up.
I am not upset that the good moments come and go because right now I am in a good moment, I am happy, at peace, alive and well. I train and I remain strong. I know familiar moments will occur maybe in this town maybe else where.
I know that I will find myself in a singular moment in time where everything seems ok, practically perfect, time stands still all seems right. This moment will pass but I would have experianced that moment and carry it with me allways for it is not soon forgotten.
You may think I had forgotten but nothing is further from the truth :)
I send a farewell to the distant past and blessing to my former self for he had served me well. He made the right choices to get me to this day. I wave goodbye to that moment in time I pray for your journey to be blessed.
Thank you for such wonderful memories I will hold them close to me on my journey of life.
Thank you so much rebekah pollard for being such an influance on my life and showing me so much about myself but most importantly thank you for showing me happiness you have indded made me a stronger person thank you for the love :)
Reminsing is a good thing cause it is important to remember the person I once was and what events lead me into the person today. I was training round town tonight it was good and I went round spots that I see all the time I suppose I went to places I took my ex girlfriend when I first met her and showed her my parkour.
I thought how crazy it was how this all happened over 1 year ago and how quick time goes. It is important to value every moment and go with it I said to myself that times you maybe down but others you are up.
I am not upset that the good moments come and go because right now I am in a good moment, I am happy, at peace, alive and well. I train and I remain strong. I know familiar moments will occur maybe in this town maybe else where.
I know that I will find myself in a singular moment in time where everything seems ok, practically perfect, time stands still all seems right. This moment will pass but I would have experianced that moment and carry it with me allways for it is not soon forgotten.
You may think I had forgotten but nothing is further from the truth :)
I send a farewell to the distant past and blessing to my former self for he had served me well. He made the right choices to get me to this day. I wave goodbye to that moment in time I pray for your journey to be blessed.
Thank you for such wonderful memories I will hold them close to me on my journey of life.
Thank you so much rebekah pollard for being such an influance on my life and showing me so much about myself but most importantly thank you for showing me happiness you have indded made me a stronger person thank you for the love :)
Saturday, 9 April 2011
Self inspiration
I looked back at my blog entries from this time last april and smiled in shock at my own determination.
The truth is I was in a relationship from jan 2010 during april I did not see her as much due to her exams so I focused on my own personal growth as I had just turned 18 reading the blogs I was so into everything and wanted it so much and it was all for myself, only I understood the motive.
However by the winter of 2010 I moved away from portland and the weather took a turn for the worse I continued to train in the gym but something was missing. The spark I had was gone and everything was forced and I felt so small in the big bad world.
However in my relationship I stayed happy but soon become a routine where we seen each other all the time and I mourned my old self from april.
So after meeting a guy from my gym that I work at I felt the inspiration of myself come back as we spoke on a very similar level. This lead to the deterioation of my relationsip. It came to an end in February, at first it was ok I found my rhytme and life went on however like most long relationships heart break soon followed.
But I still carried on with training and even to this day all is well as you can see in my previous blogs.
I will admit I was sad yesterday and today not acting myself I was unhappy and missed the past with her. But I am so greatfuly I caught a glimpse of the older blogs from last year cause I understand why I did what I did and how down it got me that I had lost that spark I had last april.
Certainly the spark returned shortly before the break up however with its up and down moments, despite how sad I did get my performance never went down. I remeber last year sitting on the bus to gymnastics reading my spirit book and relaxing before the session in my own zone my place. Sad my girlfriend at the time could not relate to me I fully understand why all this happened.
I had made a choice to become the person I loved best Me, I will admit circumstances change I am not the person I was last year because things are different I work now, I train differently, talk differently and enjoy different things.
But I know not to forget that person I was deep inside me because that is an example of my inner strangth I had lost in the winter. I am that person once more just a little matured.
I remember who I am and what I want in this life, I'm so glad I found that again, maybe all those things were a build up to this moment now.
I just hope all goes well, I am optomistic of my efforts despite the my inner ability to predict the future events.
Note to self:
If in doubt remember who you are, remember you did it all for yourself !
The truth is I was in a relationship from jan 2010 during april I did not see her as much due to her exams so I focused on my own personal growth as I had just turned 18 reading the blogs I was so into everything and wanted it so much and it was all for myself, only I understood the motive.
However by the winter of 2010 I moved away from portland and the weather took a turn for the worse I continued to train in the gym but something was missing. The spark I had was gone and everything was forced and I felt so small in the big bad world.
However in my relationship I stayed happy but soon become a routine where we seen each other all the time and I mourned my old self from april.
So after meeting a guy from my gym that I work at I felt the inspiration of myself come back as we spoke on a very similar level. This lead to the deterioation of my relationsip. It came to an end in February, at first it was ok I found my rhytme and life went on however like most long relationships heart break soon followed.
But I still carried on with training and even to this day all is well as you can see in my previous blogs.
I will admit I was sad yesterday and today not acting myself I was unhappy and missed the past with her. But I am so greatfuly I caught a glimpse of the older blogs from last year cause I understand why I did what I did and how down it got me that I had lost that spark I had last april.
Certainly the spark returned shortly before the break up however with its up and down moments, despite how sad I did get my performance never went down. I remeber last year sitting on the bus to gymnastics reading my spirit book and relaxing before the session in my own zone my place. Sad my girlfriend at the time could not relate to me I fully understand why all this happened.
I had made a choice to become the person I loved best Me, I will admit circumstances change I am not the person I was last year because things are different I work now, I train differently, talk differently and enjoy different things.
But I know not to forget that person I was deep inside me because that is an example of my inner strangth I had lost in the winter. I am that person once more just a little matured.
I remember who I am and what I want in this life, I'm so glad I found that again, maybe all those things were a build up to this moment now.
I just hope all goes well, I am optomistic of my efforts despite the my inner ability to predict the future events.
Note to self:
If in doubt remember who you are, remember you did it all for yourself !
Thursday, 7 April 2011
Upcoming truth
I was in bournemouth yesterday and did things that pushed me, I put myself through all kinds of things that had me trying to overcome mental barriers. It was like that in Derby.
All my life I was brought up to be cautious and to stray away from danger, then I started Parkour where at first I fell and injured myself and even ended up in a cast twice. Being in a cast is stressful and does take up time for me it was 4 weeks and 2 weeks rehabilitiation. So yeah it has taught me to take my time and not go crazy but after yesterday I went through psychological hell only to land something and burst out laughing at the ease my physical body was able to do it.
So I guess what I am saying is sure I have balls when it comes to this stuff your everyday person will look at it and doubt their own ability immediatley as we do in this society.
But I am not comparing myself to untrained indivduals I am on about me. I know it can be dangerous at times but the last week or so has taught me that I put in enough effort and I train well enough to be responsive to even big obstacles. It comes down to the training I have been doing Parkour for 4 years now, the first year and a half was spent in Corby with little commitment and I rarely pushed myself. However 2009 after my 17th birthday saw me push myself to bigger running precisions and I become more aware of how the body grows. Now I am 19 and heavily into personal training I know a lot about different reistance training and how the body responds in different ways to each training.
Parkour requires a very generic base of fitness your talking core stability, strength in the lats, shoulders, triceps, quads, hamstrings, calfs, trapezius. So basically all the major muscles of the body.
However its training them in the right way. Tricep extensions and kick backs will improve climb ups kong distance, however you also require lots of strength and power in the shouldersand trapezius. The shoulders and back are made up of whats called rotar cuff muscles mostly working as synergist muscles so for them to be worked your gonna have to do free weights throwing in a mixture of different shoulder work outs.
I don't wanna keep going on about this what I wanted to say was every movement and pattern the body goes through is based on motor units and activation of muscle fibres. Now the reality is I find it difficult to overcome something that is new or beyond my set standard. So really what I know I can do is do more training in the gym activate the motor units and twitch fibres so that when doing something different the body responds well in a manner that gives the best result to minimise injury.
However looking at it on a mind side I could be the worlds fittest person and still not be able to do something simply because I was scared.
So the truth is I will get hurt, I will fall and probably several times, I may find myself in moments of agony and fear. I can do what I can on a physical level to minimise any injury that may occur simply because shit happens. However I noticed that when committing 100% there is a lower risk of any intrinsic things going wrong (basically an injury occured by ones actions) rather than because he pussied out and landed funny.
So I know what I want to do I know shit gets scary but It is what I want and it is why I am here. So in absoulte confidence I will overcome what I can to push my boundries both physical and psychological.
All my life I was brought up to be cautious and to stray away from danger, then I started Parkour where at first I fell and injured myself and even ended up in a cast twice. Being in a cast is stressful and does take up time for me it was 4 weeks and 2 weeks rehabilitiation. So yeah it has taught me to take my time and not go crazy but after yesterday I went through psychological hell only to land something and burst out laughing at the ease my physical body was able to do it.
So I guess what I am saying is sure I have balls when it comes to this stuff your everyday person will look at it and doubt their own ability immediatley as we do in this society.
But I am not comparing myself to untrained indivduals I am on about me. I know it can be dangerous at times but the last week or so has taught me that I put in enough effort and I train well enough to be responsive to even big obstacles. It comes down to the training I have been doing Parkour for 4 years now, the first year and a half was spent in Corby with little commitment and I rarely pushed myself. However 2009 after my 17th birthday saw me push myself to bigger running precisions and I become more aware of how the body grows. Now I am 19 and heavily into personal training I know a lot about different reistance training and how the body responds in different ways to each training.
Parkour requires a very generic base of fitness your talking core stability, strength in the lats, shoulders, triceps, quads, hamstrings, calfs, trapezius. So basically all the major muscles of the body.
However its training them in the right way. Tricep extensions and kick backs will improve climb ups kong distance, however you also require lots of strength and power in the shouldersand trapezius. The shoulders and back are made up of whats called rotar cuff muscles mostly working as synergist muscles so for them to be worked your gonna have to do free weights throwing in a mixture of different shoulder work outs.
I don't wanna keep going on about this what I wanted to say was every movement and pattern the body goes through is based on motor units and activation of muscle fibres. Now the reality is I find it difficult to overcome something that is new or beyond my set standard. So really what I know I can do is do more training in the gym activate the motor units and twitch fibres so that when doing something different the body responds well in a manner that gives the best result to minimise injury.
However looking at it on a mind side I could be the worlds fittest person and still not be able to do something simply because I was scared.
So the truth is I will get hurt, I will fall and probably several times, I may find myself in moments of agony and fear. I can do what I can on a physical level to minimise any injury that may occur simply because shit happens. However I noticed that when committing 100% there is a lower risk of any intrinsic things going wrong (basically an injury occured by ones actions) rather than because he pussied out and landed funny.
So I know what I want to do I know shit gets scary but It is what I want and it is why I am here. So in absoulte confidence I will overcome what I can to push my boundries both physical and psychological.
Saturday, 2 April 2011
Trip to Derby
Whilst visiting Corby I went to Derby for the day training with Michael and Andy another corby local. During our trainign we met others along the way who trained with us.
I did a few things that pushed me which I caught on film which I will upload. I then went to the gymnastics club in Derby and met damien walters again as well as other I aint seen in a while.
Many of them are very good and very talented, I picked up a few things from them but others just really come with continuos practice. After leaving the gym the sun was setting and the city was quiet and it was peaceful. I wondered if a similar experiance would follow in Sydney. A beautiful city crowded by day but peaceful as the sun goes down, people commuting to go out with friends or family. It was a very peacful and nice experiance Derby is a beautiful city I must admit.
I felt alittle down once getting of the train at Corby tired indeed I just needed a sit down but I missed my ex. The only reason I can think is normal nostalgia if that is how it's spelt. Missing the fact I was once in a teenage romance that turned into a tedious adult relationship. However they were good times, fun times and it was something I had wished for as I was younger. I do feel alittle lonley but hearing my mums voice reminded me that I am never alone I have a loving family.
With flashbacks of my own performance and others I chuckled at the thought of all the things I wish to achieve. Having my work cut out for me means I have so much to do but its what I want.
Daniel Ilabacas saying helped me overcome a few things "Falling is a choice" to which my responce is "I don't want to fall" Applying care and consideration to my movement. Yes I feel a little lonley but I just miss the past I have come to terms that such a lifestyle would have only held me back to something I know deep down inside I want more than anything.
I wanna do well at what I love and it makes me smile when I know all is possible when setting your mind to it. I have done well so far.
I did a few things that pushed me which I caught on film which I will upload. I then went to the gymnastics club in Derby and met damien walters again as well as other I aint seen in a while.
Many of them are very good and very talented, I picked up a few things from them but others just really come with continuos practice. After leaving the gym the sun was setting and the city was quiet and it was peaceful. I wondered if a similar experiance would follow in Sydney. A beautiful city crowded by day but peaceful as the sun goes down, people commuting to go out with friends or family. It was a very peacful and nice experiance Derby is a beautiful city I must admit.
I felt alittle down once getting of the train at Corby tired indeed I just needed a sit down but I missed my ex. The only reason I can think is normal nostalgia if that is how it's spelt. Missing the fact I was once in a teenage romance that turned into a tedious adult relationship. However they were good times, fun times and it was something I had wished for as I was younger. I do feel alittle lonley but hearing my mums voice reminded me that I am never alone I have a loving family.
With flashbacks of my own performance and others I chuckled at the thought of all the things I wish to achieve. Having my work cut out for me means I have so much to do but its what I want.
Daniel Ilabacas saying helped me overcome a few things "Falling is a choice" to which my responce is "I don't want to fall" Applying care and consideration to my movement. Yes I feel a little lonley but I just miss the past I have come to terms that such a lifestyle would have only held me back to something I know deep down inside I want more than anything.
I wanna do well at what I love and it makes me smile when I know all is possible when setting your mind to it. I have done well so far.
Monday, 28 March 2011
Birthday
2 minutes ago I turned 19 suppose I am not really 19 until 4am but nevermind. I remember my last birthday very clear, my dad rang me and I asked him.
"So dad what now what do I need to learn to become an adult?"
He laughed saying it is not all that simple. My girlfriend at the time text me to say happy birthday, unfortunatly we are no longer together but nevermind.
What has happened in the last year well I got a job and become a qualified gym instructor, my knowledge has expanded on fitness and antatomy. I have experianced wonderul things I have been in love experianced love. I have watched the sun go down whilst sat in the middle of a harbour. I have travled to places spontanously only to know more about myself.
I have had a vision that I stood by and I have had a dream which I still have today. I have watched myself grow, I have cried, sweated, laughed.
I have put myself in positons where I was past the comfort zone but continued into the realm only to see a whole new side of myself.
I have had highs and lows, moments of uncertainty and moments of feeling invincible. I have lived my life, I have met people. I have experianced love and heart break. I have grown spirtually, mentally and physically.
I have made great choices and not so great choices. But I stand here today to say I am not done :)
I completed te first chapter of a story that means so much to me. What will I be doing for my 20th birthday I wonder, hopefully I am in austrailia with some friends I might have made along the way and enjoying my life.
But I am glad what has happened this year and there is much to be done more to be learnt. I dont know what to expect but I am gonna give it 110% :)
To the future !
"So dad what now what do I need to learn to become an adult?"
He laughed saying it is not all that simple. My girlfriend at the time text me to say happy birthday, unfortunatly we are no longer together but nevermind.
What has happened in the last year well I got a job and become a qualified gym instructor, my knowledge has expanded on fitness and antatomy. I have experianced wonderul things I have been in love experianced love. I have watched the sun go down whilst sat in the middle of a harbour. I have travled to places spontanously only to know more about myself.
I have had a vision that I stood by and I have had a dream which I still have today. I have watched myself grow, I have cried, sweated, laughed.
I have put myself in positons where I was past the comfort zone but continued into the realm only to see a whole new side of myself.
I have had highs and lows, moments of uncertainty and moments of feeling invincible. I have lived my life, I have met people. I have experianced love and heart break. I have grown spirtually, mentally and physically.
I have made great choices and not so great choices. But I stand here today to say I am not done :)
I completed te first chapter of a story that means so much to me. What will I be doing for my 20th birthday I wonder, hopefully I am in austrailia with some friends I might have made along the way and enjoying my life.
But I am glad what has happened this year and there is much to be done more to be learnt. I dont know what to expect but I am gonna give it 110% :)
To the future !
Sunday, 27 March 2011
Training Update
Training real hard, I tried to sign onto a new blog but i decided to keep to this one as this has been my baby from the start.
Well to start of a little note on resistance weight training and body weight exercises including dynamic motions. The idea of the training when broken goes something like this.
Lower Body
This is broken down into the Quadriceps, Hamstrings, Gluts and Calfs on a basic level. Exercises include squats, one legged squats, leg extension, calf raises, hip abduction/adduction. That is as much as I can think at this time, now I always go by the number 12 reps and 3 sets (Hypertrophy) which with the right amount of intensity and rest time will result in improved lactate threshold, activation of type 2a muscle twitch fibres which are essential in Parkour and Gymnastics. Now the other thing being the activation of motor nerons which is linked to propriception also know as muscle memory and in some ways "sixth sense like reflex".
Now the problem being is going by the perfect routine which is best for my sport or discipline gymnastics is slightly more straight forward however parkour is a slightly different ball game due to the way it expands and has little limitations. One method includes Power training ideally a good exercise would be a barbell dead lift, the motion of the agonist in this case extension of the knee and hip. Now moving at a very speedy rate as much as possible will activate motor units around the quads, hamstrings, gluets and that other lower back muscle I cant fucking pronounce (Quadratus Lumborum) there are other muscles but I'm still studying.
Guidelines of power training say 1 - 4 reps to fatigue were talking some heavy lifting here and if not traing is gonna hurt a tad on that lower back. The other dilemma being my gym is not a body builders gym it is a public facility so the heaviest barbell weighs 45kg which is not enough.
So what I do is exercises that use as many indivdual muscles and muscle groups activating as many motor units as possible. Periodisation comes in handy at this point.
UpperBody
For me is straight foward cause what I mentioned before but I don't do power as Parkour uses alot of upperbody and I do alot of handstand exercises which are demanding and are very specific. But still I do shoulder presses with dumbells, chest press, chest fly, lateral raises, shoulder front raises, tricep extension, tricep overheads and I could go on all day.
Got studying today but training recenlty has been awsome nailed standing palm flips today, Parkour is going awsome but I gotta study so will update soon.
Well to start of a little note on resistance weight training and body weight exercises including dynamic motions. The idea of the training when broken goes something like this.
Lower Body
This is broken down into the Quadriceps, Hamstrings, Gluts and Calfs on a basic level. Exercises include squats, one legged squats, leg extension, calf raises, hip abduction/adduction. That is as much as I can think at this time, now I always go by the number 12 reps and 3 sets (Hypertrophy) which with the right amount of intensity and rest time will result in improved lactate threshold, activation of type 2a muscle twitch fibres which are essential in Parkour and Gymnastics. Now the other thing being the activation of motor nerons which is linked to propriception also know as muscle memory and in some ways "sixth sense like reflex".
Now the problem being is going by the perfect routine which is best for my sport or discipline gymnastics is slightly more straight forward however parkour is a slightly different ball game due to the way it expands and has little limitations. One method includes Power training ideally a good exercise would be a barbell dead lift, the motion of the agonist in this case extension of the knee and hip. Now moving at a very speedy rate as much as possible will activate motor units around the quads, hamstrings, gluets and that other lower back muscle I cant fucking pronounce (Quadratus Lumborum) there are other muscles but I'm still studying.
Guidelines of power training say 1 - 4 reps to fatigue were talking some heavy lifting here and if not traing is gonna hurt a tad on that lower back. The other dilemma being my gym is not a body builders gym it is a public facility so the heaviest barbell weighs 45kg which is not enough.
So what I do is exercises that use as many indivdual muscles and muscle groups activating as many motor units as possible. Periodisation comes in handy at this point.
UpperBody
For me is straight foward cause what I mentioned before but I don't do power as Parkour uses alot of upperbody and I do alot of handstand exercises which are demanding and are very specific. But still I do shoulder presses with dumbells, chest press, chest fly, lateral raises, shoulder front raises, tricep extension, tricep overheads and I could go on all day.
Got studying today but training recenlty has been awsome nailed standing palm flips today, Parkour is going awsome but I gotta study so will update soon.
Wednesday, 23 March 2011
Follow up
My last entry shows I have my ups and downs with the break up who wouldn't it was a long relationship for me. Right now though I am now thinking about that, in 6 days time I will be 19 years old.
Suppose every birthday I look back on the previous year and ask myself what I have achieved I won't get into details but I have done pretty well for myself in the last 6 months. Credit is owed to my family and friends not just myself.
Anyway all I have to say is as time goes by I realise the bar is raised and the effort needed to achieve something my new motto being "Work hard Play hard". Giving everything 110% all of the time and also knowing when to quit or in my case take it easy and chill.
Times have changed in a quick pace I accept that I mean who wants to live the same routine over and over again I know I don't. I will be sticking with blogspot as I like how nobody reads this but me maybe some 40 year old brazilian guy but that depends if he can really read English ! O_o
Anyway the reason I havn't been updating this thing is because when I moved I had no access to the internet or my computer for that matter . . . .
I did however update my blog through a diary which I wrote in pencil ^_^
. . . So I feel I am going about things right I know when to change things I know the dos and don'ts in moderen society (I think).
I guess all I really want at this time is to work hard on the things I love and to gain results in the near future, I know how to do that simply using my resources around me and practice practice practice.
Thats it for now but I will update soon when the time comes probably my birthday :)
I'm out ...
Suppose every birthday I look back on the previous year and ask myself what I have achieved I won't get into details but I have done pretty well for myself in the last 6 months. Credit is owed to my family and friends not just myself.
Anyway all I have to say is as time goes by I realise the bar is raised and the effort needed to achieve something my new motto being "Work hard Play hard". Giving everything 110% all of the time and also knowing when to quit or in my case take it easy and chill.
Times have changed in a quick pace I accept that I mean who wants to live the same routine over and over again I know I don't. I will be sticking with blogspot as I like how nobody reads this but me maybe some 40 year old brazilian guy but that depends if he can really read English ! O_o
Anyway the reason I havn't been updating this thing is because when I moved I had no access to the internet or my computer for that matter . . . .
I did however update my blog through a diary which I wrote in pencil ^_^
. . . So I feel I am going about things right I know when to change things I know the dos and don'ts in moderen society (I think).
I guess all I really want at this time is to work hard on the things I love and to gain results in the near future, I know how to do that simply using my resources around me and practice practice practice.
Thats it for now but I will update soon when the time comes probably my birthday :)
I'm out ...
Saturday, 19 March 2011
Back to the start
I feel somewhere along the line I may have done something wrong, or just did not see it coming.
My last blog entry was in August that is 7 months ago, the last 7 months have been nothing but a blur. September was the start of college and my gym instructors qualification, I moved home in November to Weymouth and I got a job at a gym in December which I still work for today.
So heres the outcome I am now a qualified gym instructor, I am now sitting a personal training course with all the knowledge freely available to me, I earn £7.50 an hour and average 12 hours a week. My fitness including strength and endurance is through the roof. My parkour and gymnastics is at a much higher level.
Yet I now feel in a position were I am rock bottom. My surrounding friends are slowly drifiting away, my relationship of 13 months came to an end a few weeks ago. I am going to be moving on my own to Poole and then Sydney.
Right now I feel very lost, everything I have wished for I have achieved yet I feel it aint as great as I had expected. I make lots of money which most of I save towards Sydney, my wriitng skills have improved dramaticlly.
Somehow I am lonely I don't know why :/
I didnt think this would happen, I suppose I miss Rebekah, I'm sad I couldn't make it work. I'm sad my friends are drifitng away and those funn times of parkour a few summers back are just memories.
Parkour sticks with me it has grown a large importance in my life, I just can't explain this feeling of lonliness, it is all happening to fast I do kinda miss my life a year ago I dont care that I didnt have as much money or wasnt as strong I was happy and I had company.
I just don't know what is going on right now :/
My last blog entry was in August that is 7 months ago, the last 7 months have been nothing but a blur. September was the start of college and my gym instructors qualification, I moved home in November to Weymouth and I got a job at a gym in December which I still work for today.
So heres the outcome I am now a qualified gym instructor, I am now sitting a personal training course with all the knowledge freely available to me, I earn £7.50 an hour and average 12 hours a week. My fitness including strength and endurance is through the roof. My parkour and gymnastics is at a much higher level.
Yet I now feel in a position were I am rock bottom. My surrounding friends are slowly drifiting away, my relationship of 13 months came to an end a few weeks ago. I am going to be moving on my own to Poole and then Sydney.
Right now I feel very lost, everything I have wished for I have achieved yet I feel it aint as great as I had expected. I make lots of money which most of I save towards Sydney, my wriitng skills have improved dramaticlly.
Somehow I am lonely I don't know why :/
I didnt think this would happen, I suppose I miss Rebekah, I'm sad I couldn't make it work. I'm sad my friends are drifitng away and those funn times of parkour a few summers back are just memories.
Parkour sticks with me it has grown a large importance in my life, I just can't explain this feeling of lonliness, it is all happening to fast I do kinda miss my life a year ago I dont care that I didnt have as much money or wasnt as strong I was happy and I had company.
I just don't know what is going on right now :/
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