Thats Life

For most of my teenage years I always had a picture of how I seen myself later on. I know that alot of people have done the same thing, Ego its the way we picture ourselves, happy, strong and at ease. It gives our lives reassurances, it motivates us to wanna do good . . . . . . . . . . . . . . or bad . . .

Many can say growing up can be an emotional roller coaster your crying your don't know why, your laughing you don't know why. You make plans you change them, you fall in love, you experiance a sense of disapointment again and again. You fall down, you pick yourself up, you try again. Try harder, be different, you change again. I say it was all an experiance, an experiance worth living; I see myself upset at one point in the past knowing now I may have missed something more important something that was worth the energy other than what I was upset about to begin with.

I have always had dreams of how I wished to be but like all thinks reality changes so does my dreams. I think of ways to better myself, ways to improve, be a better man be stronger and be knowledgable.

I look back on the past and I see the moments of triumpth, I look back and I see the moments of downfall. Funny I should say I wouldnt take it back ever. I look back and smile.

The irony in all this, I use the word ironic like I know what it means :S.

The point no matter what the downfall, the mistakes, the mishaps and the uncertainty my intentions were good willed sometimes very misunderstood by mostly myseld as well as others. All those moments have taken me to this day Today!

Here now the present moment I hold close to my heart knowing that I want something, something I have chosen to be. Something I smile upon knowing that sense of achievement I have come across more than many a time in the last 3 years.

I am also familiar with the term "If you can't live without it you cannot live with it." A saying my dad has said to me many times before. 2010 has been a year where I have watched myself grow, same with 2009 and 2008 right back till 1992. I have aimed high and have set to acheieve my dreams, and slolwy over time I have watched myself grow into the very thing I pictured all those years ago.

My reality changes as so do my dreams. In a way they grow in sync with one another, circumstances change, ideas change, the people you meet change, those you love change like I have. One thing I do find amusing thought is that my achievements have become reality, its just funny how different they become.

There is having a dream and there is living the dream.

Here is one term I shall always live by :) . . .




税关 - Know thy self.

I am proud of what I have become, I am proud of who I am.