I mentioned how I found myself against an obstacle which I questioned and couldn't put myself across how I managed to do it.
This was put to the test yet again I took a 2 day visit to Corby where I soon realised my Parkour abailities and overall strength had took a turn and everything was simply effortless. By the end of the 2nd day I was bored and ready to return to the south which I have realised is my favourite part of Britain for Parkour reason being I live there :P.
However on the way back home I was on the tube and thought about the imax blue walls outside waterloo station. I stepped of the tube and decided I shall try the kong to cat which I find very large and dangerous if done incorrectly the drop is about 12 feet.
So I made my way to the ground floor walked there and was over whelemed with excitment and fear. I took a look at it and a local next to me was doing it with ease and was actually attempting to precision from the kong.
So after 5 minutes of back and forth in my mind I knew that I could do it so I went for it. I ran and dived for the kong by the time I was half way over I knew I was gonna make it but still scared thinking "What if I dont" So instead of a cat leap I bear hugged the wall cutting my forearms I clmibed up and looked back thinking. "Ok that was fun I'm trying that again.
So I did and I landed the cat leap just fine. I walked away towards waterloo on my way to Weymouth. What I felt before the kong in a strange way was fear for my own life I honestly felt I could die but deep inside I knew that this moment was soon to come. The question I asked was is such a thing worth it all, in a way it was death is not certain but injury is more than likley its a big drop. However the other option was doing it right and I made it fine.
I was right when I said before I am coming acorss these one chance only obstacles more and more :P its strange how life unfolds in this way. I asked myself what is round the corner well the Imax walls was one of them yet when I looked around I knew that this was a mere small obstacle. I still have alot of growing ahed of me, this was nothing more than the next step to my growth in Parkour. So I looked around at the next possible set of obstacles and I knew what work and effort has to be made to make such things possible.
I smile in excitment that I will return hopefully physciall prepared for it all. I may find myself returning to London on a regular occasion now.
The same night I went to gym and landed an inward wall sideflip which is a first. Again I am excited for what is to come I just make sure I am well prepared mentally and physically because nothing is every really easy. To me I see everything as a form of challenege that appears impossible or highly unlikely but time changes and so does the work that is put into it. Everything eventually becomes questionable, possible and do able. I once trained so that I could conquer the obstacle and become in some form of way enlightened by what I achieved and the feel of acceptance by the people I cared for.
However I never really felt that, everything was thoughts and no action. I felt furstated and unsure of what had to be done.
The last couple of months have changed now I know longer seek to conquer the obstacle I seek to over come my present state of mind, ideas coming to life. My body is the tool to achieveing my dreams, I think for a moment but in time I stand on my two foot and in a way I walk through my life. Moments later I have gone from one side to the other, what was once this is know that what was once a theory is now fact. What was once questioning is now understanding.
I no longer seek to conquer my fears nor the obstacle. I seek to embrace the ever learning journey that my life has become or always has been. I realise now that some things are part of a system that have to be understood such as gravity, power, speed, strength, grip, technique. Apart from that it is all a mix of randomness, coincidence, cause and effect.
I seek the knowledge that surrounds me in people, in walls and in myself. I dare not ask again "What is to come in the near future, what is next in my journey."
The answer is. I don't have a clue but far from nothing I tell you that:).
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