Coming to terms

Today I had a night session with the guys. My shoes are on the verge of death but I have ordered two new pairs, I can't seem to wear my k swiss anymore even though they are sweet shoes. I just don't feel anything so I always wear Feiyues which are just average but I feel everything with them on, however they have a lifespan of over a month tops.

Anyway tonights session had me thinking, the realm of possibility like my previous post comes with effort, determination and love. I find myself growing, I find my surroundings change as I do. So I begin to think of life from outside of Parkour, is it what I want?

Parkour can be a strange thing it clouds the past and the future. The future seems to far away to even think about and the past appears to distant to consider looking back on. All that I am aware of is the present moment in time. The only future I consider is the pre planned route that I am about to take the only past I think is the work and effort that has led to this exact moment.

My progression has shown me that there is no hope in setting a plan because no matter how it turns out even if its the way you want it to turn out the outcome will be like nothing you ever imagine. It's like thinking of a colour you have never seen before.

So what am I coming to terms with?

Well I would say that I am coming to terms with that I am futureless up until the present time. There is nothing but now, my actions now will build upto the soon moment in the futre that will soon become the present.

I have come to terms with the fact that nothing is what it ever seems. A thing I have said to myself before on several occasions which seems relevent to say now :P

"There is more that meets the I." :P