The Future of Parkour of Life . .

Well this blog is aimed at me and my plans for going to Austrailia.

I plan on going in 2 years, on my 20th birthday. Now I have been wanting to go for years now but now I am getting older I am becoming more realistic about it and thinking what needs to be done before hand.

I mentioned how I hit a wall in Parkour where I'm like ok now what, then came to the point where I knew risk factors and all that bollocks doesn't mean anything in Parkour when it comes to the moment itself. Well I was hit with another factor, I am not all that perfect.

Bad days come and go this was in my mind. I took a rest from Parkour for a few days I go gym and mentally I was tired and doubtful. So I make my way to the soft floor where its difficult to land anything it made me realise how much leg strength I can gain. I noticed I can train harder with my ankle weights, weight vest and other equipment. I hit a wall, I climb the wall, I fall down. I train and condition I become physically stronger and gain more mental abilities to over come the wall.

This applies to what I hope to achieve in the future, I am getting better at Parkour and Gymnastics but I can't stop hear this is still the early stages of my development. I am struck with the hard reality.
"I have a fair bit of free time on my hands don't waste it on fucking facebook :P."

The other simple logic applying a little more intensity to my work outs. Also don't back down on the night sessions by the Portland school, little pactice is better than none.

I have achieved a fair bit in the last month or so but I set the bar higher, I am preparing myself for whatever journeys await for me in Austrailia. I may seek commerial work, film, tv who knows it is silly to think at this point I can only really go with what I have now.

Parkour, gymnastics and other stuff like getting a small job to get some more money behind me and into my savers account. I sense how much further I can push with Parkour it's there staring me in the face.

In a way it stares all of us in the face, the ability to become great at what we wish to become. It takes hard training , dedication and time. It takes more things but anyway what I am getting at is tht after gymnastics I went to some party at this club I was there for 10 minutes and looked around I recognise alot of faces, some from college others from around town.

It made me think some of these guys are "dedicated athletes" some of their aims are high but this aint possible if they fuck around in clubs. I wasn't to bothered about what they did I just looked back at myself glad that I came to this club to remind myself what I want.

I already know what I want I noticed the bar has been raised for my expectations. I am learning and transforming into an adult as I know approach 18. It's a strange process. I don't know what else to say except I know what has to be done. :)

I hit a wall

Well my previous post stated that my progression has been good and that I stop to think ok now what ??

Well Sunday had me thinking while training I practice familiar techniques I apply different methods of flow and movement. It works balance, creativity and co-ordination its also a form of exercise that builds several different muscle groups.

So I stop to look at other variations of familiar movements in a familiar area. The only different being the obstacle. The obstacle or obstacles in my case where at a level that has me question my own ability and I question the possibilties.

"If I fall I get hurt and it could be a nasty fall if I am not careful."

I have methods of over coming anxiety or fear I am getting good at it but I am also getting good at analysing risk factors and knowing what I can and cannot do.

The problem however is the emotion, even with my brain ticking off the potential risks if failure where to happen and ticking off the routine of my run, arm movement, timing of my legs, position for the next moevemnt it is the same routine I have under gone for nearly 3 years. It is burned into my mind.

So everything checks out but one thing stops me.

Stepping into uncharted territory, stepping out the comfort zone. My emotions don't like this survival instinct kicks in like a crazed man running inside my head. I'm not saying this is the first time it's happened, I'm saying its the first time it's happened without safe practice or progression towards it.

So I take this feeling on board everything checks out but this overall emotional out burst of uncertainty. So now I am thinking now that I have witnessed a small taste of over coming such a thing what must be done to overcome the more dangerous of obstacles when injury is almost certain if I fall.

Well I guess its all down to trusting myself, when I am moving nothing ever seems real except the moment and obstacle itself. It is just me and the obstacle(s) I don't feel fear I feel a sense of connection with myself and my oposing obstacle.

Uncertainty is saying that something cannot be done, applying effort pushing past mental barriars show that such a thing is indeed possible and likely. Before long I notice effect put into place, at that point and look back at the outcome.

I was once there but now I am here and back there being here through that route was not possible yet I have proven that theory obsolete because I am now here at this moment in time.

So what I am trying to say is physically alot of work has to be done but that is common knowlegde to any traceur of freerunner like myself.

What takes some thinking for myself is realising that I know nothing at all but by admitting that I open the door to the fact I can learn everything out their by leaping forward into the uncertainty of my so called fate. The outcome of every calculated guess, precaution and sense of purpose all jumbled together while I am in mid flight in the realm of unknown. At that point everything means nothing and at that point nothing means absolutly everything.

So I may find myself standing infront of an obstacle that I have never attempted before a possible large kong to cat, cat pass precision or large precision bound. I'll stand there and openly admit that I havnt got a clue what may happen, just a familiar mental vision that my brain has created for my own reassurance. So that I know roughly what I want to do, but nothing will ever feel the same as the moment itself.

I know for a fact I will be standing infront of an impossible obstacle soon, I know my brain will be going crazy projecting every bad thought it has to offer. I also know that I will remain completly blank knowing that the realm of possibility is forever changing because I am forever pushing the boundary..

What comes next . . .

These 2 weeks have been great I trained hard like I said I would, I filmed lots of footage and posted some videos on youtube :).

As of now I am in bournemouth and its been wonderful, now I stop to think, what next?

Well right now I feel like doing the same thing as I did the previous 2 weeks, I know the next 2 weeks will be different from the previous 2 weeks.

What I feel is important right now is preperation, and focus. As the weeks go on I will change as my methods of training change, I will never really know how the future turns out, I just keep strong and keep trying and go with what happens.

In 2 weeks time I will be 18, but to be honest thats the last thing on my mind right now. As of now everything sees blank all I can go on is the present moment in time.

Coming to terms

Today I had a night session with the guys. My shoes are on the verge of death but I have ordered two new pairs, I can't seem to wear my k swiss anymore even though they are sweet shoes. I just don't feel anything so I always wear Feiyues which are just average but I feel everything with them on, however they have a lifespan of over a month tops.

Anyway tonights session had me thinking, the realm of possibility like my previous post comes with effort, determination and love. I find myself growing, I find my surroundings change as I do. So I begin to think of life from outside of Parkour, is it what I want?

Parkour can be a strange thing it clouds the past and the future. The future seems to far away to even think about and the past appears to distant to consider looking back on. All that I am aware of is the present moment in time. The only future I consider is the pre planned route that I am about to take the only past I think is the work and effort that has led to this exact moment.

My progression has shown me that there is no hope in setting a plan because no matter how it turns out even if its the way you want it to turn out the outcome will be like nothing you ever imagine. It's like thinking of a colour you have never seen before.

So what am I coming to terms with?

Well I would say that I am coming to terms with that I am futureless up until the present time. There is nothing but now, my actions now will build upto the soon moment in the futre that will soon become the present.

I have come to terms with the fact that nothing is what it ever seems. A thing I have said to myself before on several occasions which seems relevent to say now :P

"There is more that meets the I." :P

Realm of Possibility

The two weeks has began, the weather has been sweet still is today but I'm tired :(.

My last few days of training have made me realise that all is possible when you try it I know that might seem like commen knowledge but I feel deep in my mind. It makes sense that with the right attitude, love, determination, respect I can achieve anything.

Before hand I always seen it as if something was not do able I would work out or condition till I was strong enough to do it which did wor but there was more too it than just that. I soon relaised there is also the technique it self that must be practiced but again still something was missing.

Only recently I have realised it is the feeling the love the passion for what I do. When I move I am not thinking that I won't make this or that this cannot be done. Instead I think this is everything I have ever wanted, this is my personal goal, everything I have ever achieved in my life has led to this moment in time, I take a moment to breathe and a second to smile :).

I work out because a high level of stength on all different types of muscle groups are required, I eat healthy because it contains vitiamins and minerals that my body needs to use to rebuild my muscles. I do Parkour because I love to move, I love to grow and watch the world change as I do. Parkour is a form of getting from A to B for a purpose, that purpose is the reason why we train as hard as we do. Parkour for me gets me from A to B, the A is the day I was born the B is the day I die. Between that is all those people I will meet, the locations I travel too, the things I learn. The time I learn more and more about my very existance. :)