New year

Ok its 2010.

I guess its kinda silly to start a new years resoultion luckily for me I decided to start my so called resolution about 3 days ago ;).

It's not really a new years resolution it just happened to be a cioncidence that this commitment occured 3 days before new year.

Anyway I was at my uncles house were everyone was at in his back garden you can see all of Portland lite up I sat and looked at the shining town for about 20 minutes. In 2007 I was 15 years old I sat there thinking about what I am going to do with my life when I move to Weymouth which was in June 2008. I smiled at the fact it has been 2 years since that day and I am proud at what I have achieved so far some things didnt plan out as I hoped for all the right reasons, my ignorance as a 16 year old was my major downfall.

As I get older I become more aware of what person I am becoming, I always feel I wont live to be an old person because from a fairly young aged I have disciplined myself in Parkour and Gymnastics I have continuoesly strayed away from relationships, alchohol and drugs. I have realised the last couple of days what I have achieved, how I did that and what it will take to achieve this in the future.

Right now I know what needs to be done to go beyond what level I am at now. I realise there is alot that I need to put aside and leave so that I can achieve what is personal to me.

I won't lie I see myself in the future as possibly someone successful who connects with people on a deep level with my writing and my Parkour. However most of those feelings were not healthy they were mere egotistic thoughts for my own satisfaction.

The truth is I don't have a clue what is going to happen I always felt I wont live a long life but I can never know the universe works in strange ways I could die tomorrow no matter what the risk factor be it is not inevitable.

I have a rough idea of what I want...... For now.

Not nessecerily what I may want in 10 years time or 20 years time. I am involved with Parkour and gymnastics as well as screen writing. For the first time in my life I am saying I will do what ever it takes to achieve my dreams, my life.

I know what it takes and I can't let simple things like laziness get in my way because as active as I may be I am also one lazy bastard when it comes to getting out of bed :P.

I know what I want for the time being I treat everyday as a blessing being that it is possible I have the resources, the family, the friends, the inspirations and hopefully the right heart. :)