Willpower

So I have been training I feel myself getting stronger. Its only been a week since I started it so the results wont show straight away. Parkour training is going great I push myself I'm becoming confiedent and I'm happier.

Gymnastics is great also tricks are becoming easier to pull of. On sunday I was training with a friend of mine and we were climbing a cliff and I never knew how weak I really was when it came to climbing. But I decided to keep on going and I will keep on climbing until it becomes easier.

Now in my life with new boundries I take complex situations as a test to me. A test for my Willpower. I have been involved with a girl for the past week but deep down I feel that it is just a waste of time. She has her life and I have mine I try listening to her I try my best to understand her but I personally feel inexperainced at this time to really help her or fully understand her. I feel my Willpower being tested to simply move along and continue with my training with my friends. The willpower to put all emotional needs and egotistic feelings aside and purse what really matters to me.

So if I have to put it behind me and set my emotions aside then that is what I shall do.

Day 2

Another day of conditioning to a point I'm pushing myself.

I left my house at 21:09 and began to jog. Across the industrial estate and past the lesuire centre. I then jog down a familiar road past an abandoned building of some kind. I then pass the victoria square where I put my attention on the new scaffolding I done muscle ups on the other day. But the sound of Pendulum makes me want to run another lap past the castle and back past the abandoned building. Once past I decide to make my way across the road towards the scaffolding.

My chest is burning I must of breathed to heavy during my run....

So I look at the scaffolding and begin to do pull ups I do 5 and hold it for 10 seconds. I drop down and do another 5 pull ups and hold it for 10 seconds. Then I done a flag for a couple of seconds.

I then focused on actullypushing my body more so I done dead hang with my legs locked at almost 90 degree angle. I held for 20 seconds and dropped. Not enough I say I hold again but this time for 30 seconds. I drop still not enough I hold for 40 seconds.

Ok thats enough but can I hold for 50 seconds ? I attempt but my arms feel like led and I drop after 20 seconds. Is this all my body is capable. Im not as strong as I thought I was but I smile at the fact I have so much room for improvement. I think ok I will return again and again but push harder hold longer. During my moments of scffolding excercising many men in business suits walked past me. They looked at me in such strange ways. I asked myself will I ever wear a suit like that one day. I couldnt bare to live life without pushing myself just wearing a suit everyday.

So I walk back to the industrial area as my Ipod plays. The sound of Gwen Stafanis voice puts a smile on my face even bigger than it was. So I jog back to the industrial site where I repeat last nights workouts on the over grip climb ups. At this point my triceps and wrist muscles feel so huge I can barley move them.

So as I hang in a cat leap position I begin 10 clean no struggling climb ups I get to 7 with doubt on my mind but I say "If you stop now I may as well quit Parkour forever." Eminems voice keeps me distracted while I complete my last climb up I decide to hang for 2o seconds after which I do another 5 climb ups. I hold but drop.

Im exhusted and decide to go home to get a glass of water. Tonigh was amazing I want more. I wanna try harder, I can feel the toll on my body but I merly laugh and smile "I want more I want more."

HA... Ok tomorrow more training. It has been nearly 3 years since I started Parkour but only feels like day 2 :). What does day 3 offer ?

Aftermath

It is 22:25 I have just finished my night training session. I have never sweated like tht before in my life.

I jogged about half a mile to get things of my chest then returned to get a jumper. After which I warmed up. I ran up a wall and put myself in a cat leap position. A nice easy over grip climb up was what I had in mind. So I done 10 and dropped down. Then I done another 10. Then another 10 but I got to 9 and slipped on the last one back to the floor. So then I made my way across the car park and deicded to precision a fairly easy gap. Of one big rock over another rock and land on the third. Jumping from one onto the third and back counts as 1. So I done 10 and decided to try 10 more. By number 19 I fell of the rock and decided to try another 10. By number 6 I was tired but kept myself going and finished. Then decided to do 5 more to finish of.

I sat down for a second and seen chain going across. Jumping over and back again counts as 1. By number 8 my calfs were num. So I finished on 10. My body felt like that was enough for today so I finished out with another 5 climb ups. I decided to get to 10 once I reached 5.

By then I was sweating like I had done a 5 mile run. So I warmed down and thought to myself. "I should of done this sooner." it has taken 2 years to start pushing :( but oh well. Continue I shall =D how far can I push myself Friday?

Night session

It is 20:43 right now I am waiting for my Ipod shuffle to charge so that I can go out and train. I have been reading Blanes blogs. I am intrested in trying his theory on pushing the body to the point were you can feel anything

Cat leaps over and over again, kong precisions over and over again ect.

I'm intrested to know how far my body can really go. As i said to myself the other week even though I have been doign Parkour for 2 years only recently does it feel like day 1.

After gym last night I slept for 15 hours and had the most bizarre dreams ever. Dreams that I was talking to people I havnt spoken to in a long time. Old girlfriends, old friends that I was once involved with in Parkour. Yet the conversations were so vivid I can even remeber them now.

Dreams are an intresting thing.

Now I must leave to take a dump and continue on towards my night parkour training.

Tomorrow ?

I had a small Parkour session Saturday night and a trick session today on the grass.

With my tricking it didnt feel like anything spectacular. But I was happy and after about 20 minutes I stopped and thought. "This is the start of it all." Rather than being annoyed because I couldnt pull of an amazing front tuck like my coaches. I just thought " I'm looking forward to trying all this in the gym tuesday."

I felt patiant and excited. I guess it is a way of controlling my emotions. Not being to attached or being egotistic. But simply happy, content and aiming my mindset on the next stage whenever that maybe acheived. I would love to apply this control to how I feel everywere. I know longer want to be involved with those that I feel akward around.

I know what kind of person I am now and I know what I want to do. That is I want to train in such a way that I cant even imagine what tomorrow will be like. What will my training be like tomorrow what will I acheieve, what will I learn from tomorrow?

Also I wonder who I may come across tomorrow that I may learn from. The thing is I dislike a repetative routine. Some things I may do on a daily basis may have a similar role but surely they are all unique in some ways ?

Either way I like knowing tomorrows training can be unique from any other day the question is though will I even be training tomorrow :P

Another day

Right now I'm in my kitchen on my laptop chilling out. It's a sunny day and I can see the beach through my window. I can also see Weymouth on the otherside of the beach.

In about 2 hours I'm going trampolining, I enjoy it and I wanna learn something new. It's been a while since I done trampolining because of my commitment to gymnastics and parkour. But I'm bored so why not :P.

I'm kind of going through a resting stage the Parkour training I had done in Corby last week left me exhausted and has taken me 3 days to recover from properly. I have worked out abit during those 3 days. I bought these handles from argos used for arm and shoulder conditioning. Som of the stuff I was doing I could feel work way more better than my regular press ups and other push up variations I have done before.

Anyway I might do some Parkour tomorrow before trampolining try and widen my vision more. Since my 17th birthday I'm finding myself doing more different Parkour movments. Some times I will do precisions, running precisions. climb ups, kong precisions. Or just whatever that comes to my head that I find a challenege to me keeping in mind the words that help me in training. "Adapt and Overcome."

Adapt and overcome

From the books I have been reading since my shoulder injury which happened in early February this year, the change in me took a drastic change for the better. However this change in me doesnt stop with the helpful knowledge and wisdom of the books (Ageless mind Timeless body) and (Silent Power). The emotional and stress problems I have been experaincing mostly due to teenage hormones :P, I can find it difficult.

But shortly after my 17th birthday I feel myself adapting to my body and slowly understanding myself. Experaincing knowledge through silence. When I keep myself silent I become more aware of everything else especially when someone is talking to me. I take in their knowledge so that I will use it myself at some point.

Another thing I kept in mind to myself was. There will be times I will find myself in a paticularly negative enviroment or a situation where I don't feel myself. The words simply. "Adapt and overcome" have a great meaning to me.

To me the words. "Adapt and overcome." says to me understand, learn, become one and move onwards.

In college their have been moments where I feel akward and ego dominated. Also a level of attachment that has been breaking me down slowly. So I ask myself how can I "Adapt and overcome."

I simply choose not to take in the knowledge from my college peirs, I myself found it difficult living their lifestyle. I choose to be silent but take in the knowledge around me, understand the people that surround me in that area. Most importantly not become attached on an emotional level.

My change in attitude in Parkour has changed me all together. I just hope such knowledge I have learnt since can help me dettached from it all and then overcome so that I can move on to the next stage of my life.

Easter =D

It's been almost 4 weeks since my last post I don't know why :S.

My birthday was on the 29th March I got myself a few pairs of Kalenjis and they are the best shoes I have ever worn. For my birthday I had a 6 hour parkour jam with a few mates around Weymouth and then to finish the day of a 2 hour gym session in Poole, I never been so tired before in my life.

After which I started Parkour in other areas of Weymouth I had never tried before. Within a few hours all of the conditioning both body an mind really took its toll. Everything felt easyier, I understood my body more I moved easier and faster.

After a week of full on Parkour training I had to rest for a day or 2, afterwards was some gymnastics.

Gymnastics felt more easier tricks were higher got some stuff filmed and put it on youtube.

When college finished for the Easter I went back to my home town of Corby. At first it was great meeting up with the local traceurs.

It had been almost 4 months since I was last in Corby and with all the conditioning and new attitude to what I do everything else was easier I found myself pulling of movements I couldnt do before.

Within the next few days I realised how shit the town really is my old friends I trained Parkour with during 2006-07 were constantly drinking taking drugs pissed out there heads. There would be times people found my movements and acrobatic like skills impressive some spoke to me about Parkour most others would either say. "I can do that." or "I can do double that."

That kind of attitutde reminded me how much of a shit hole the town was and why I moved. Not many people will respect or admire anyone who shows a "different" or "unusual" type of skills you or I will learn.

The thing was it never made me angry it made me pity the fact that rather than embrace the site of skills and acheievement from others people decide to throw their negative comments upon that person.

Shortly afterwards after thinking about it I understood more and more about why I do what I do. Knowledge passed down by the ones before us to share with us what human beings can really do and show that "Nothing is impossible." But many of us are not brought up to belieive such things and carry on living our day to day lives in normaility. A life filled with emotional attatachment and dependancey on one another.

What we forget is that rather than depend on other beings to fullfill our own emotional needs we should be taken in the real knowledge from the strangers you meet everyday of your life. Even those you dislike through your life will most certainly carry a valuble teaching that you one day will carry with you for the rest of your life.

I think we need to stop putting down others with our ignorance and share our love for one anothers skill. We need to share the knowledge passed down by the ones before which made us who we are. We forget why we are here in the first place.

The most intelligent people will die, some very young. But their knowledge will pass on by like a pollonating flower. The knowledge I speak of is not what is read from texts books but instead understanding there sacrifice, what they beleived in is the real knowledge that surrounds us in our everyday lives. The knowledge from those before us is constantly communicating to us like a voice in our heads but most of us are so ignorant this knowledge is cast aside.

I myself have showed ignorance but these last 6 months has been like a roller coaster of body, mind and spirtual awarness. I practice Parkour because I beleive that a hidden knowledge awaits for those who seek it. A journey that cannot be described but experianced.

So that when I one day will pass away like every other human being my knowledge will spread across the world and embraced by those who seek it so that they too can carry on the path of the knowledge that our predassecors sacrificed their own physical existance for.

So the next time I myself or you feels put down by a remark made by a spectator whos only desire is to hurt with there ignorance just send them a silent thought saying. "If only you knew."

That person will probably walk away very doubtful about themselves questioning their own ability which will lead to more doubt in themselves.